When my heart breaks, it makes a sound...
Now Playing: Breathing in Sequence by Hawthorne Heights
Topic: No Idea...
Um... hi. Tyler's dad died... did I ever talk about Tyler on here? Good, because he was unimportant anyways... It's almost Spring, I'm happy at the same time that I am heartbroken, I keep remembering everything from LAST spring, and I wish that I could go back so bad, but I guess I can make new memories this spring... hopefully... With Chris in the picture it's pretty hard to be normal anymore. He hates all of my friends, so I'm always just like, trying to separate myself from them, so I can stop being like them, and being more like what he wants... KCEA is in less than a month, I'm excited and nervous, I can't wait to sing in front of all of those people, but it's kinda scary to think about... I'm supposed to be watching my grandmother right now, but I don't care, I just wanted to post something quick, just to say hey, I guess... I'm just so confused right now, and posting on here *none of my friends check this site* might actually sort out some of what I'm thinking, so thanks for listening... much love, lexirose.

I haven't slept a wink since you have been gone...
Mood:  not sure
Now Playing: I want to be buried in your backyard by Nightmare Of You
Topic: Support Anti-'Love'
You may have guessed this, but I have gotten a new blog, and have been updating it far more often than I have ever updated this one. I think there are at least 80 entrys so far. A lot has happened in my life since March. But I don't remember what was going on in my last entry so I can't really say anything. This year rocks. I have so many friends, and they all love me, and I love all of them, and the bus ride is awesome, and DJ is completely and totally my best friend, which makes me super happy because he is so awesome. And he's getting me a Christmas present, and I've been trying to get ahold of him all day to tell him what I want. I looked all day for this url, because I'm getting a new computer tomorrow, and I've been reviewing all the things that I have done on this computer in the last 2 years. I've had some great blogs, hott websites, and plenty of instant messengers. I'm gonna miss it when I get my new one tomorrow, because I'm gonna lose all my old data, but it's all good, cause I'll get new and better data. Hahaha. Oh well, I'm supposed to be offline right now, so I better go. Luv ya. LexiBoo.

Not much to say
Mood:  sad
Now Playing: Collide by Howie Day
Topic: Support Anti-'Love'
I am talking to some guy, he makes me feel like crap. But who cares I still like to talk to him, because he is really nice too. I'm glad he's my friend. Hannah left CVCS, we all miss her. I've been lighting candles and sitting on the roof more often lately, guess it's because I'm really sad. Oh well. Who cares how I feel besides me anyway? Oh and by the way LOVE FREAKIN SUCKS!

Too much love, ick much?
Mood:  quizzical
Now Playing: Shut Up by Simple Plan
Topic: Support Anti-'Love'
First let me say how sorry I truly am! I didn't write for over a month and I'm really sorry about that, everytime I want to write I come up with some excuse why I can't and therefore you have a month with no blog entrys, I know I am a very forgetful girl. Anyway, with Valentines day almost here I decided to start an anti-love movement. I mean seriously, what's the point anyway, only select people can enjoy this lamer than lame 'holiday' and who wants to be part of a whole when you can be a totally independant person and have your own thoughts and make your own decisions. V-DAY SUCKS SO BAD! And why does everything promote love? Love is worthless and makes no sense and makes fools out of everyone and kills you slowly and rips your heart into a kajillion tiny little stupid pieces, need I go on? So why does everyone want to fall in love if it'll only ruin your life? And yes, everything does promote love, and you know what I don't get? I'm in 8th grade and amazingly even in a middle school they are trying to get the students to 'fall in love.' Like last year at WAMS we took these stupid tests that said your top 10 matches in the school, and at this school we have carnation day! What is the point of carnation day? To target a single person and tear down their self-esteem just a little more than it already is? I mean do they really want to kill us with all this lame love junk? The only purpose for carnation day is to make the only person who doesn't get one tear theirselves down more than they usually do! That's my take on things, what's yours? Leave a comment! Here's the most recent blinkie I have made! Ciao!

A very un-happy new year!
Mood:  blue
Now Playing: Thoughtless by Evanescence
Topic: My Life
Ok, so I am really upset today and I'm not even going to get into it. Well happy new year I guess, I hate new year I got to sit downstairs all alone all night and got to say happy new year to no one but myself! Sound fun, Oh definately! 8-( (EYE ROLLING EMOTICON)! And then I had to get up this morning to be yelled at by my supposed best friend and then get rid of my AIM system. So it's just best everyone leaves me alone! Oh Steph, you are totally right, I need to talk to ** and everything will be better. I'm just gonna leave ya'll alone now so my bad mood doesn't upset anyone! I made this first blinkie and found the rest, happy blinkie day. P.S. This is a new brand of blinkie that is called a block blinkie!


Dustin has been gone 11 days; School starts again in 2 days!

My sorry level is really pathetic. Haha, I am emotionally detached!
Mood:  spacey
Now Playing: Missing by Evanescence
Topic: Blinkie craze!
So, sorry I didn't write last night, Briana was spending the night! We had so much fun, we made lotsa blinkies lol! Happy New Year's Eve! Yay, I can't wait to see the new year, OH NO! I don't have a new calender yet! I threw mine away today, haha! I'm not going to write too long today because I have nothing to write but I'm going to post 3 blinkies made by me, 1 made by Briana (it's the one with the name Jarrett on it, icky!), and one I found on the net! ENJOY!
This is a quote from Missing by Evanescence, by ME!
Lol, I wonder who could have made this one! Is there any more Lexi Rose's out there? I doubt it!
This one is from the song Come Home Soon by SheDaisy and I made this one also!

This is the one Briana made for her and Jarrett, I still be saying ICKY!
HAHAHA, I found this one on the net and I just love it to pieces!

Dustin has been gone 10 days!

Unable to recover!!!!!
Mood:  caffeinated
Now Playing: Mockingbird by Eminem
Topic: Blinkie craze!
I am soooo hyper. I had fun shopping, it was really great, I got like lip gloss, and a new purse, and 2 new posters, and a new dvds, and a lotta stuff. AND THE BLINKIE CRAZE CONTINUES, mwh ha ha!!! I am 100% obsessed with those adorable little things that are usually 150x20 pixels, they are cute Cute CUTE!!! Time consuming, but totally worth every second, searching, planing, animating, saving, etc... But anyway, today was really uneventful, I know TOTALLY FUN, right??? Riiight. Well since you all are loyal readers that are so awesome even when I have really lame posts (like today's) I've decided to cut this torture short and give you all a special treat! YOU GUESSED IT, TONS OF BLINKIES!!! Whoo Hoo, LET THE BLINKIE PARADE BEGIN!!!

Ta-da, there's today's entry, I gotta get going! Ciao!

Dustin has been gone 8 days!

Blinkies, Blinkies, and you guessed it MORE BLINKIES!!!
Mood:  special
Now Playing: From The Inside by...you guessed it LINKIN PARK!!!
Topic: Blinkie craze!
Hey ya'll, I can't write long tonight because a)my computer keeps freezing b)I've been on the computer all day! I had a great day! I discovered the joy of those cute little graphics called blinkies and have been downloading and making them all day. When I wasn't doing that I was working on other electronics, such as my new speakers and my cd playing alarm clock! Briana, I got your comment last night, I hope he goes away, he scares me, I don't like him and I definately don't LOVE him. Ick. STEPHANIE WHY DO YOU HAVE TO BE HANGING OUT WITH YOUR STUPID BOYFRIEND RIGHT NOW OF ALL TIMES WHEN IT IS MAJOR IMPORTANT I TALK TO YOU!!!!! I can't wait until tomorrow, I get to go shopping, yay, I totally love that idea! It will be so fun, I wish shopping was like a sport because I would be really good at it! Well I have to go because I need to go pick out an outfit for tomorrow, but I will post some cute blinkies first. LYLSAB. Ciao!

Dustin has been gone 7 days (one week). :'(, at least he'll 'come home soon' (lol I love that song)

Lalalala Lalalala Elmo's world, Lalalala Lalalala Elmo's world, I love my goldfish my crayon too, 'Cause that's Elmo's wwwooorrrlllddd!!!!!

Another day, another exploding soda, another un-made decision, and another stupid title.
Mood:  silly
Now Playing: Over by Lindsey Lohan
Topic: Something Or Other
Hi, like today's title? Isn't it thought provoking, haha. Ok, let's start at the very beginning, a very good place to start, lol let's not start singing, I'm just so hopeful and it's making me idiotic (lol Steph, you know why, thank you so, so much. By the way, the comment you said you wrote didn't post.) Ok so the exploding soda part means that I was hanging out with Briana after I finished babysitting and we were being really stupid so we took a can of Diet Vanilla Pepsi and shook it up. And I was like "ooh this looks like fun" so I took a knife and slammed it into the can, and then there was a fountain of Diet Vanilla Pepsi everywhere and it was so hilarious. And an un-made decision is refering to WHAT AM I GOING TO DO FOR MY BIRTHDAY!?!? I have until June to decide but do I want to have a party with only my closest friends or do I want to have a party with the majority of my class? I think the class party would be fun but so would the slumber party. Yikes, I am just so unable to make up my mind! And the stupid title, haha self-explanatory, isn't that totally great. Well today was pretty good. I can't call __ because he's not there what should I do!? Well I guess I'll have to call someone else and we can talk about our super secret plan, haha. Well I have to get going so I can carry out my plan so I don't overly freak out!!! ~*~*~Bye~*~*~ Dustin has been gone 6 days!

Ooh, let's go cause some trouble!
Mood:  mischievious
Now Playing: Hit the Floor by Linkin Park
Topic: I am sooo bad!

	Love-a-Lot Bear You love to take care of others and people love being around you because you make them feel appreciated. You are very sweet and soft-spoken. You are also a romantic and consider yourself an excellent matchmaker, so you tend to be a bit nosy. But everyone still considers you the sweetest person they know.
Take the Which Care Bear Are You? Quiz!

Isn't that so adorable, Care Bears are so cute! I'll try to write tomorrow since I have to babysit, but I can't write tonight for too long. So I have to get going so we can get along with our plans! DM has been gone for 5 days :(! (This is my countdown.)

Sorry...
Mood:  accident prone
Now Playing: Lying From You by Linkin Park
Topic: Something Or Other

MERRY CHRISTMAS! Yay, I love Christmas time, it's so wonderful. Well, I'm sorry I haven't written in almost a month, I've been very busy, I started writing in my diary again. And I started a dream diary too, I know a lot of you don't believe in the whole 'dreams can be symbolic' thing, but I am so into that idea, therefore I've been writing all my dreams in it as soon as I wake up and then I try to get them interpreted, it's been helping me clear up a lot of things too. Yay, have ya'll seen all the comments I have (Steph I don't think your last one needs answered, you can probably fill in the blanks yourself lol!) (Briana I got yours too, thanks, actually it was 9 months but whatev lol, why'd you put it so far back in my posts though???) and I think it's so awesome that ya'll are writing them to me. I've been writing a ton these days, I love it, the one thing that I am really good at and it's so fun you can really express yourself when you write. I think in the last month I've wrote 15+ poems (and amazingly they're mostly happy, WHOA BIG CHANGE, lol and you Steph have started writing the sad stuff, it's like our personalities (sp) have like switched) and I think they're some of my better works. Not to mention I've started working on a short story, and Degrassi and Radio Free Roscoe fan fiction pieces. And to Christmas, WHOA MY HOUSE IS LIKE FILLED WITH PRESENTS, IT ROCKS!!! I got a phone, (my own, yay!) and a bean bag chair, and some dvds, and some cds, and one of those home planet veiwer things :), and a new stereo, alarm clock, skateboard, and a lot of stuff for when we re-do my room, and OMG the big, special, hilarious, wonderful present MOM AND DAD GOT ME A REAL GUMBALL MACHINE, lol, it's going to be so cute in my new room. I hope you all had as great a Christmas as me. I hope your day is totally wonderful and filled with joy and all that stuff! Well talk to ya'll later, LYLSAB, ciao!

This is so great!
Mood:  chatty
Now Playing: Kiss Me by Sixpence None The Richer
Topic: No Idea...
I am having a great day! Right now I'm on the phone talking to these 2 people, both of whom are really interesting to listen to. They are all like, talking about all this stuff, and it's all like really interesting. Of course there's this one person that whenever said person says anything I memorize it so that...well nevermind. I just remember everything the person says because it is a benefit to me and will help me succeed later on in my life, well not really but let's pretend that's why I remember everything the person says. Yep, that's about the extent of it, I enjoy saying that lol. So, yeah...one more day then it's back to school. I don't know if that makes me happy or really sad. I guess I'll decide that Tuesday. So yeah, I think I'm in the closest to happy mode that I can be in at the time being, which is really great. Black Friday was the best, I spent a ton of money at Hot Topic. Well thanks for all the comments you have been writing me and I am BEGGING you to write a comment for this post. Write any questions and I will answer them in my next post to the best of my ability. Ciao!!!!!

Much, Much Better
Mood:  a-ok
Now Playing: Numb by Linkin Park
Topic: No Idea...
Well I had a much, much better day than I had yesterday, after I signed off on here last night I got really upset and irritated and nothing could make me happy. But today made me much happier. Oh, and Scott, thanks for saying anyone within 5 feet of me gets this bad vibe (bad karma) lol, it's so true though, isn't that awesome!? And thanks for the comments people, even if they are like happy, let me help you out comments. I don't need help, writing this blog is my form of self-help! Oh and another great part of my day is that I wrote the most terrific poem today, all about the fake-ness of people, it ROCKS! I finished my skirt in home-ec another great highlight. It's just an all-over a-ok day, note: I didn't say it was like the best day of my life or some stupid lie like that that people always say. Doesn't that just make you so mad, I hate when people say something as idiotic as that. Oh and one more thing don't I write sooooo much better when I'm sad or mad, all my writing is so much more deep. K, gotta go! BYE!!!!!!

Mood:  not sure
Now Playing: Lagrimas by JD Natasha
Topic: No Idea...
Am I happy or sad. Dunno, it was good of me to get out my feelings of rejection last night because then I felt like a whole lot of stuff was taken off my mind, guess it is good to share your feelings with people even if its people you'll never have to meet, thats even better because then they won't even remember it and remind you ever again in your life. Am I sad that I still don't have a group at school, yeah. Am I so so so happy that me and this guy passed this note back and forth until the whole front and back were filled up, DUH!!!!!! It's great, so happy! Oh and you know whats even better, I'm like a freak, a major freak, everyone's always saying what a freak I am, so I guess I know I am, how great is that??? YAY FOR ME! Ok, now I'm in a really bad mood. I can't tell you what happened though because then I'd have to reveal a childhood memory I've been able to cover up since it happened. So anyway, I have to go lock myself in a dark room and gather my daydreams and day-mares. Please, please, please write a comment, I'm begging you all because I need some people to write comments because no one does and I really, really want someone to. Later!
~*~*~The Freak~*~*~

Beberse Las Lagrimas
Mood:  sad
Now Playing: White Houses by Vanessa Carlton
Topic: No Idea...
In matters of the heart, you're in somewhat low spirits today, dear Alexis. Your state of mind is symbolized by the Hanged Man, who saps your enthusiasm and self-assurance. <--That's my daily Tarot reading and it is so true. I'm not as happy as I have been the last few days...who am I kidding, the only happy part of my week was going to see National Treasure on Friday evening and I looked like a freak because I was in pink. I feel empty and hated and all alone in this huge, preppy, overwhelming world. So, yep, I feel pretty much like I don't belong anywhere. And I feel really...weird, I keep thinking of this guy and I feel...well I don't know how I feel, different I guess. And then I feel more depressed. I've been sitting on the roof more lately I sit there for a long time just thinking about everything. All my thoughts are like spinning around in my head in ugly, bright colors that the preps like. And I can't get a hold on these thoughts, I can't stop them and pick one up and think about it, they all just stay there in one big, colorful, spinning vortex that eats away at my mind and drives me insane. I can't stand to be in bright noisy rooms anymore and I feel like being alone in dark quiet ones and I have no idea why. Probably because of all those thoughts eating away at my sanity. And I'm losing my patience, like getting really annoyed with everyone. It sucks. I wish I didn't have all these thoughts and that it would all just go away, there is no escape, NONE! I hope it gets better, we'll see.